From a very early age I never wanted to be seen. That means being good at what i do and never making a mistake. I'm always early, always prepared. With backup.
Worst thing for me is making a publicly visible error. I don't even like playing card games where my mistakes are visible to others.
Much of autism in adults is unrecognized because we have managed to hide successfully. Sometimes we excel for that reason, but often we are quietly licking our wounds.